Tonsillectomy Hell

I have not written anything because on Friday I had my tonsils taken out, and I am now in an emmense amount of pain, although I rarely let on to anyone that this is the case. I am trying to eat my breakfast right now, and it is making me want to cry. On top of this the pain killers they have given me are soluble and the taste of the cocodamol makes me want to slit my wrists, it is so disgusting. I have tried diluting it in squash but that has accomplished nothing but put me off that flavour of squash. You will have to excuse me because as I am typing this I can feel the pain meds kicking in and things going a bit funny. I suppose I will have to finish this post later.

I am freaking out

OK, so I have a great day going to Hayling Island with Brian and the boys, am very sunburnt but we went on the fun fair rides and had a blast. When I came home I started thinking more about the week ahead. I am having my tonsils removed on friday, and I am really worried about the recovery time. Mainly because I am a single mum of 2 boys, and cannot really afford to be out of commission, although it shoudl eliminate me getting sick with tonsillitis again, which I have been getting quite a bit lately. People who write their experiences on the internet have successfully scared the crap out of me, saying that the bleeding and the pain post-op is emmense. Now I wonder if I am doing the right thing by going ahead with it. See if I am unable to cope with day to day things it is not just my kids whom I am letting down, I look after a friends kids for a few days a week, and I am worried that this could prove somewhat difficult if I dont bounce back quickly. now, I know I must put my own health first and deal with things like that afterwards, but I dont like to feel like I am letting people down, especially my friends who do so much for me. I just needed to vent that and hopefully I will be worrying for nothing and all will go smoothly. but we shall see...

What to do

It is looking to be a very nice day today, so I am sitting her munching my breakfast thinking about what to do. I am going to Julia's house tonight for a girly movie night, and I am really looking forward to it. I was thinking about taking the boys swimming, but maybe that can wait till Sunday. I have had a very long week, it has been half term, so the kids have been home all week. In that time I have had my car breakdown, and needed to have the slave cylinder replaced. Fortunately the AA guy came and he was able to repair it for half the price the garage was going to do it for. I really should get the garden sorted out, but most of the time I just can't be bothered, although I love sitting out there, it seems that you have oly just cut the grass, weeded the flower beds, and before you know it you are back out there doing the same thing, I hate repetiveness!!! I went training last night, I will be graduating to my green belt next week. I am so happy that I have found something that I love, and I feel as a woman I am pretty good at. Keeps my fitness up and I have met some awesome people along the way. I was a little sad that Mr. Bibey left us though, as he is an awesome guy and always made it a positive experience. Brian is going to come along to training next week and try it out, I think it will be interesting to see how he gets on. He has very supportive of me, and I would really like him to see me in action. better get on and start the day, although this could take some motivating.

Welcome to my Blog

Hey There to anyone who may be reading this. I have decided that I would try to keep up a blog to act as a journal of sorts. At this moment in time I am 24 years old with 2 children who never caese to amaze me, but can be a handful at the best of times. I am a Canadian living in the UK, I have been here for 6 years this week. I came to live in England after following my husband here, although we are now currently in the process of finalising our Divorce I intend to stay here. I have been trying to discover new authors lately as I usually stick to what I know, and have been reading Harlan Coben for some years now, I have now discovered Kathy Slaughter, although her books are not as gripping as some of Cobens, I have found them an extremely good read. I have many interests for instance I am currently working towards my Blackbelt in Mixed Martial Arts. I love cooking for people, especially baking. I love Anything homemade, and am really a country girl inside. I am hoping that writing some of the things that go on in my life will help me to understand myslelf more, and maybe help others like me have an insight as well. I have been through quite a lot in my short life, and in time I will most likely write about it in more depth but at the moment I just wanted to get a start on this, as I am chronically prone to procrastination, LOL. so for now I will sign off and look forward to writing more as it happens.